neonleonb

Lately, I've been waking up early, no matter when I go to bed. Fall asleep at 2:30a.m.? Up at 7:30a.m. Fall asleep at midnight? Up at 7.

Now, that doesn't sound entirely crazy, except that it means I haven't gotten 8 hours of sleep one night in the past week. That's unusual, especially given that I've been physically active like no one's business, including working and dancing outside in the sun for at least 4 hours on Saturday. But still my body wakes me shortly after sunrise. I have noticed one of the telltale signs of being sleep-deprived: I'm more emotional than I would be ordinarily. But still, here I am at 7:20 this morning.

I recognize that these are crazy ideas, but somehow I believe them all, at least with a part of my mind.

"Good people are never proud."

"Good people never show off (demonstrate their good qualities) or boast (talk about their good qualities)."

"Good people set aside all self-interest."

"Good people are self-critical."

"Good people are unfailingly diligent and hardworking."

"Good people always do their best. Not just close to their best (that's cheating), but their real best--they could not possibly have done better."

"Good people are not controlled by their emotions."

"Good people transcend their biological impulses."

"Good people are good in all ways. Any failure is all failures."

"Good people make no excuses. Being 'merely human' is an excuse."

"Good people do not believe they deserve things."

"Good people tolerate the failings of others, but not their own."

"When in doubt, good people err on the side of caution with regards to these principles."

Edit: I'd be happy to discuss these crazy ideas, but let's not argue too much about whether I should hold them. I recognize that they're subtly (and not so subtly) crazy.